An Unseen Kindness Chapter 5

so after far too long I finally wrote chapter 5!
first- this chapter has a title. I almost called it "Hyacinths" after the flowers Ken brings. but then I didn't. I'm currently trying to come up with names for the previous chapters.

I wrote this chapter ENTIRELY by hand in about three hours while my mother was at the Mormon Family History Center near where I live. I go to keep her company, and it gets me away from the internet so I'm not distracted.

This was my favorite chapter too write so far, and was one that I'd been planning the longest-  this was the Core of the story. So yeah.
I'm expecting one more chapter and an epilogue. It's a much shorter story than the others, but it's the longest of the companions, so that's something.
I missed Wormmon here, don't worry he'll be in the next chapter. or rather Stingmon will.

So let's dive right in.

It opens in the flowershop. At first, this chapter was too be much shorter, it would be Ken entering Matt's room and just that scene and that would be it and readers would have to look at the blog to see the meaning of the flowers, which I looked up waaaaaay back last year while writing A Fading Hope because look and check, it's the same flowers! I did all the research!! but then I realized that like one person reads the blog ( hi Crestoflight3!) so I decided that it needed to get brought up in the story. and because I was thinking about Sora's mom... well, it happened. Toshiko's Garden is not the real name, I don't think, but it was never given a name in the show so I named it after a local flowershop where I live. The Garden part, not the Toshiko's part. anyway.
It was nice to see Sora's Mom here, less frantic about her daughter.

About the flowers- yes, those are the meanings of the flowers. I found them. I was always really into the meanings of things- rocks, flowers, names- so I thought it'd be really cool to work some symbolism in there. (oh my gosh I'm an English teacher send help)

This was also a REALLY emotional chapter to write. Um, I kinda cried a little. because I got really in character with Ken and all, and it was HARD. One thing about his character is he constantly blames himself for everything, particularly Sam's death. so I added to that guilt because I am a writer and am apparently a terrible person.

Here in the hospital, after Nancy leaves, Ken gets his first- practice, I guess, at saying sorry to the DD. He knows Matt can't hear him, but hey. He wants to say it. He's so sorry. And he feels like this is as close as he will ever get to saying sorry because he can't face the others, can't. They won't listen. they hate him. they ought to, anyway. he can't look them in the eye, he doesn't deserve to. Poor Ken, he's really messed up at this point.
And it spills out- how sorry he is. how much he wishes he could fix. how much he blames himself.
And then come the memories- two sets. the first his his own, of being a child and his brother dying, his brother dead.
the second set is his imagining what it was like for Matt and Nancy and T.K's family to feel the pain he felt- knowing that he might well have killed T.K.
I actually forgot to include a continuation of this thought- even after the near death of TK in A Captive Light, Ken KEEPS TRYING TO KILL THEM.  and he knows now- so many times, he was nearly a murderer, it was only so many miracles that kept the DD alive. The guilt is crushing.

I guess that will happen next chapter!

Then goes another plot point- he sees Matt's jacket, thinks it's Tai's and leaves Kari's necklace in the pocket. Only it's not Tai's, it's Matt's, and it's not just a necklace, it's the Crest of Light.
so yeah. THAT'S HOW TK GOT THE CREST FOLKS! IT WAS KEN!!! MYSTERY = SOLVED.

I feel clever.

lastly, as has happened in pretty much all the stories, this chapter ends with a faint light- but this time it's NOT Kari's Light-Voice-Digital-World-Spirit-Thing.
this is the light of KEN'S CREST GLOWING, in the flowers that he brought.

the next update will be Apt 217 (which I will blog about) probably Friday or Saturday. see you then!