So I meant to write about this, I really did. I wrote it on my to do list every week, and, well, here I am. Sorry.
I don't have titles for these chapters, which feels odd, but I don't really know what to call them. Maybe after the music I was listening too. ( The main piece I listened to while writing this chapter was " Not one of Us" from the second Lion King movie)
We start where the main action of the first few chapters of Fading Hope start- the Amusement park. This was very much on purpose- Ken is the archetypal shadow here. He is where the others have been, will go, he is in their past and their future. He's not just hiding in his ruined base, he's walking the earth- erm, Digiworld, doing what he can to fix things here, or there. rebuild what was destroyed under his rule. destroy the things he built.
Ken is the Atoner, but he's a different kind- he's not doing this so he can face the Digidestined. He's not doing this so that they will forgive him, or the digimon he's hurt, because in his mind, they can't. They will never be able to, and shouldn't. Ken is doing this to atone to himself. So that he can forgive himself. It's a very long road ahead, though, and he's not sure he'll ever get there, but doing nothing will only make it worse. That's what he's been doing for the last while, by the way. Helping, this isn't the first place he's rebuilt.
He's also petrified of running into, say, angry digimon, or the digidestined- because they would have every right to attack him, and at this point I don't think he'd even fight back. He feels like he deserves any punishment he gets ( seen in his vision in the season finale) so I got to explore that.
I was really excited that I got to write a digivolving scene, because we never saw what happened to make Wormmon digivolve the first time. We can guess that Ken was in danger, since that's how it usually works, and from that and the idea that he already knew that someone was turning his spires into evil psydo-digimon ( hence why he was ok with killing that Thundermon that almost killed Cody) I spun this together. It was fun. Turionmon, by the way, is a Roman Centurion. I crack myself up.
Lastly, I love Ken's mom. she's the best. I don't think Ken told her what he did, He wouldn't tell anyone, because it would break her heart- but if he had, she probably would have held him and rocked him and said she loved him. She's that kind of mom. She really reminds me of my own mom, she was just so happy to have him back, and later in the show when he talks about having friends, she's over the moon, which is how my mom was when my brother and I made a new friend ( we were both very badly bullied and had very few friends growing up) If I ever needed to talk, Mom was there. It's really hard, not seeing her for months at a time. So Ken's mom is in the chapter, and she's instantly taken to Wormmon and they are bffs. Wormmon helps her clean the house and test new recipes.
Gosh I love the friendships.
I'll post for chapter 2 later.
